My journey so far has been slow and steady (steady most of the time, sometimes a little stalled), however we are heading into the summer. Summer for me has always been about boozing, BBQs and lazing around working on my tan. I have always put fitness and healthy eating on the back burner in lieu of late nights with friends and too big fatty magoo hamburgers. This summer is going to be different, rather it has to be different. I have come too far (yet again) to toss it all away and go on a three month vacation from my new lifestyle.
This past week (with encouragement from many) I signed up for my first 5K running event! I will participating in the Army Run on September 23rd (http://www.armyrun.ca/) and am so excxited that every time I think about it, it makes me want to lace up my shoes and take off down the road!
And then it hits me….oh yeah…sooooo I’ve never stuck with a running program before. I have started the Couch to 5K program (hmm, well maybe not “the” program but I have a run 5K app for my iPod) before but I have never completed it. I have always tossed in the towel around week 4 and even looking back on it now, I don’t really know why. I enjoy jogging, I love how quickly I can see results in my legs and I love that every week I’m able to jog a little longer than the week before. Despite all of the reasons why I like it, I have never been able to finish the program and complete a 5K run. Knowing that I am heading into my trouble season and wanting to stay focused during this time, I thought that pushing my fitness goals to a new level was necessary, and I think that this 5K is just the ticket.
After the mild panic attack I re-downloaded the app, busted out my notebook and jotted down my week of workouts. I don’t want to give up the classes that I have come to love, or the yoga that helps me chill out, so I decided to start with a few longer power walks on my “rest” days. Friday night was my first “training” night – I had butterflies in my stomach all day knowing that this was the start of my preparation which will help me cross the finish line in Septemeber. Let me tell you, jogging those few intervals was awesome. I felt stronger, less out of breath….still really sweaty but over all better than I have ever felt week one of C25k. It really boosted me and gave me confidence that I will be able to do this. I am going to cross that finish line running, not walking.
I have always been anxious to participate in “group” activities and even still prefer womens only classes as opposed to co-ed. Im always the girl at the back of the class and sweating like a beast 5 minutes in. As I was gearing up for my first interval of jogging those nagging sort of thoughts creeped in – how much is my butt going to jiggle, am I going to be sweating and red faced after these 45 seconds? And it was only after I completed my cool down, drentched and red faced, feeling so proud of myself yet again for commiting to such a goal that I realized, that I genuinely do not give a rip about anything besides remaining focused on my training.
I have a lot to learn about running (form, hills, pace, etc etc etc) but I have started slow and will build my way up to all of that in due time. I have never been more proud of myself for taking on this challange and proving to myself that while I am still overweight, I am a healthier and more fit individual that I have ever been in my life and that I am no longer going to put limitations on myself because I am “too big” to participate.