When I was having lunch with Barbara a week or so ago we had a discussion about where I’m at with my weight loss journey and she brought up a point that pretty much describes exactly where I’m at and why.
Weight loss apathy.
When I started this journey it was because I was really unhappy with how I looked. There was one photo in particular that I saw and it made me die a little inside I felt so…. ICKY about how I looked. (icky isn’t really the word I would use, but I’m trying to be kind to myself)
So I got on the bandwagon and I lost weight. And I lost almost 30 lbs. And I started working out. And I felt GOOD. And I went down two full clothing sizes. And I looked in the mirror and I thought “wow, I’m looking much better!” and people are coming up to me and telling me how great I look.
Combine the satisfaction of a job well done (what? the job isn’t done… are you sure? it’s kind of feeling done…), a busy busy life, and well…. nothing is kicking my ass to keep working on it.
So what can I do to change that? The only good idea I’ve had is to have someone take some horribly unattractive photos of me walking or running in unflattering clothing or something but that hardly seems like something one should do on purpose does it?
I’m trying to maintain and doing ok, but I haven’t been to the gym in weeks and the thought of trying to fit it in freaks me out.
So I’m going to keep rolling along and I hope you’ll still be interested in what I have to say.. because as I roll I am still trying to read through the book about emotional eating, trying to stay away from binge eating, and trying to drink my water. And eventually something will gross me out enough about my weight to finally kick me back into the right space.
I would like to know how those of you who have lost a lot of weight keep up the momentum – throw me some ideas!