In one of my first posts I mentioned how exercise helps my mood. It really does and it is one of the things I love about fitness. But it has become apparent to me that fitness alone isn’t doing the trick.
It has gotten to a point where I can distinctly feel my mood cycle with my menstrual cycle. The week before it starts I get sullen, withdrawn and can’t deal. If you were in my head you would hear an internal monologue along the lines of “bad mother, don’t deserve to have kids, why do I do this, shouldn’t be a parent”. About 8 days later I start to feel better, my mood lightens, my outlook turns sunny. At its peak my internal monologue is “I can do anything! I can organize my whole house! I AM a fun mom! I am the best mom EVAH!!!!” And another fun fact is that I have a short cycle at 24 days, which means that I get a whole 2 extra periods a year. Along with that I get two whole extra mood swings a year. Blah!
I spoke to my DH about this and he insists that my swings aren’t THAT bad. I think I am good at hiding the worst of it and even though it doesn’t seem that bad on the outside, it isn’t great. I have decided it’s time to look into getting outside help. I have booked an appointment with my family physician for a physical and to get my levels checked. I wonder if it is something chemical. I suspect I am perimenopausal and that some or all of my issues are related to that wonderful time in every womans life.
I am continuing to exercise, I still enjoy it. I haven’t done as much “formal” exercise as I would like these days, but I am out there and active and I have nothing to complain about on that front. I will let you guys know how things go with the doc and the tests.