I sent a message through Facebook last week that went a little something like this:
“Hey :) I was wondering if you could email me that picture of my butt you have?”
Good thing Carey reads Losing It and completely understood why I would want a picture of my behind :)
I was actually a little excited when she posted the picture because it is the first one of my derriere in ten years (aside from the ones from my wedding with the beautiful train on my dress) that didn’t make me cringe in horror. I mean my ass is nothing to aspire to but the picture showed me that my whole self is shrinking and even my skinny jeans are a little on the loose side.
These are the non-scale victories that I need to remember.
Like in October when I went clothes shopping with a girlfriend for the first time in a decade. I was always too embarrassed to take friends into plus size stores so I just (a) avoided shopping altogether (b) shopped alone. Then in February I broke up with plus-size clothing stores permanently!
In preparation for my appearance on the A Morning Show (because every fat girl wants to be on TV) I went clothes shopping. And discovered the paralyzing fear associated with choice. When you’re fat, you have a handful of things you can choose from. Now that I can shop in ‘regular’ stores the possibilities are endless. That was me, in Old Navy, the one looking like a deer caught in the headlights with about 20 tops clutched in my arms.
But there’s a happy ending. I gathered up half my wardrobe, which actually amounts to about 8 things, and scurried on over to one of my best friends houses. I tried on every combination of tops, sweaters and jackets and she helped me pick an outfit for TV. And can I just say, I’ve been missing out, because trying on clothes and picking the right look is frankly a lot of stinking fun. And I wasn’t even embarrassed for her to see the sizes of my clothes or to see me in my skivvies.
I fear for my Mastercard’s wellbeing.
And a third victory to complete my trifecta of happiness:
That’s me (head intentionally cut off because I had running AND bed head) in a tank top, which I actually wear in public (GASP). Like my behind, I’m no longer horrified by my arms.
The tale of the scale
Why all these happy non-scale victories? Because the scale is on its way to being banished from the house.
Grumble mutter curse.
I know I’m gaining musicle. I know I’m getting stronger. I know I’m changing my shape. But I’m still fat and those numbers need to start dropping!
<Insert deep calming breath here>
In 10 days I lost 7.5 cm (arms, thighs, waist, chest, hips). I’ve also lost 1% of my body fat in the last month, which leads me to wonder how much body fat I should expect to lose every few weeks. I’ve invested in a new scale that will let me track my weight loss and my body fat % as well.
And wait for it…oh the anticipation…0.5 lbs down in 2 weeks. That’s 1 whole pound this month <insert sarcasm here>. Although I’ve been reassured that 1700-1900 calories a day will lead to weight loss because of my current weight and high activity level, clearly, it ain’t workin. For the next two weeks I’m going to drop my calorie level down to 1600, which is what the nutritionist (who ran my BMR test) told me would lead to weight loss but at the time seemed like an extreme measure to me.
Since starting Losing It we have gradually been replacing all the processed food in our house. That means baking cookies, muffins, and snacks, instead of buying the store-bought variety. Here’s our favourite oatmeal chocolate chip recipe:
1 cup all purpose flour
1 tsp baking powder
1/2 tsp baking soda
1/2 tsp salt
1/2 tsp ground cinnamon
2 tbsp butter, room temperature
1/2 cup white sugar
1/2 cup brown sugar
1 large egg
1/4 cup plain, unsweetened apple sauce
1/2 tsp vanilla extract
2 cups quick cooking oats
1 cup chocolate chips
Preheat oven to 350F and line a baking sheet with parchment paper.
In a medium bowl, whisk together flour, baking powder, baking soda, salt and cinnamon
In a large bowl, cream together the butter and the sugars. Beat in the egg, followed by the applesauce and the vanilla extract. Working by hand, stir in the flour mixture and the oats until just combined and no streaks of flour remain. Stir in the chocolate chips.
Drop tablespoonfuls of the dough onto the prepared baking sheet, flattening each cookie slightly. Bake for about 10-12 min. Cookies will be light brown at the edges when done.
Let cool on sheet for 3 or 4 minutes, then transfer to a wire rack to cool completely.
Store in an airtight container.
Makes about 2 dozen cookies.